Ho-hum

I went  to school at around 10:30 am to "get" my grades. Sadly, I’m not a scholar anymore… I am not after the title of being a "scholar"…  It’s the "joy" it brings to my parents… Aside from the discount…I think it’s a way of showing that I do study… It’s an assurance that I do spend time reading lecture notes or books… that I just don’t sleep,eat, surf the net, watch movies or series… Atleast they think that I do have my life back, that everything’s back to normal…but I won’t be the same…ever…

If I am not mistaken, I spend almost 90% of my time infront of the computer so, you could just imagine how healthy i am… When i decided to transfer because of the incident… I don’t want to go to school, to learn… "My dreams were shattered…" I lose hope.. I went to school thinking of my parents..not thinking of my dreams or plans in life… I remind myself how luvky i am to have them as my parents… how understanding and supportive my parents are… I’ll borrow the line my classmate used last term "I could have done better…"

Yeah … I didn’t study hard, I didn’t give my best, now i’ll face my parents’ disappointment… 

I told my mother (two years ago):

    Mommy, kapag mabait ang magulang, masama ang anak…

    Kapag mabait ang anak, masama ang magulang…  

I reasoned out that if both the parents and the children are good then you’ve got a perfect family… being close to perfect, maybe…