Crush..Crash…Crush..Course…

My friends keep on telling me that I am a secret keeper…but I doubt it…I think I just respect them that I wouldn’t dare tell things I’m not supposed to tell to just anyone…

Anyway, i’ve been asked if i ever experience having a crush on someone..Of course, I answered…

As early as 5 years old, I already got a crush on someone..he’s not a playmate, at that time he was in his 20’s and he’s got a girlfriend…Luckily his girlfriend thought it was funny…my aunt and mother kept on teasing me up to this very day how naughty I was….If i’m not mistaken his name is Alvin…

When I was in Grade 2 or 3…I started to like my seatmate, who at that time, was a chubby and short guy…Let’s just call him Taz…When we reached grade 6…I was seated in front of him and he reminded me how cruel I am to him..He said that when we were in Primary Grade, I saw him wearing a very bulky watch…he said that i told him "Hindi bagay sayo…ang taba mo e…" And now I belong to what I call…having a BMI beyond "NORMAL"..ahehe.I think he misunderstood what I am trying to tell…Huge wristwatches don’t appeal nor impress me..I think few people could carry wearing them…I think….at that time…enough with the explanation…

Hmmm.. I am really enjoying the trip to memory lane…

I’ve got a crush on a classmate, which I’d call as Nolram…(obvious).. Intelligent, witty, funny, handsome, would best describe him…

But when I reached 5th Grade..I started to develop (again) feelings for Taz..maybe because we were close..literally…I remember him asking me why on Earth our classmates kept on teasing us…I just naswered, "I dunno…" Even though I know why…

When I was in my second year in high school..I saw a guy in campus, he was a complete stranger. I don’t know why but I was happy to watch over him and just the sight of him makes my day…JS Prom, and my teacher was supposed to get him just to dance with me but I refused…

When I reached college, in a reputable university, I’ve got the chance to meet with a lot of people..I think in two years I admired 4 people…

A Blockmate…-a DOST scholar who’ the boy next door type

A supposedly Batchmate…- but he quit..a good basketball player

A bachmate…-he was the first guy I ever hugged aside from my family…during our "reporting days" I felt like he was always ready to help…

Caed…-first and last person who’s able to kiss me…i think i’ll consider it as a "forced kiss" …and what we did whenever we meet on the street is just do our "handshake" and then stare as long as we could…that’s why even in my dreams we don’t  talk, we just stare and smile…

In my case, I know when I like the person if I was happy just seeing the person, or I o dumb things for the guy, or I keep on smiling even when I am alone…(it is because I hardly smile…i’ve got difficulty …smiling) and a lot more….

I felt like I just revealed too much..actually i revealed too much information…but who cares? if you know me…and I know you, just leave a message in the shoutbox..in that way…i’d be able to avoid you when we meet in the future…just joking…i wouldn’t mind..i’m cool with it…as long as you’re not one of the people I mentioned above…all right? ♥♥♥